Carolina, Parenting, Transitions

Two Cents Tuesday Challenge: Paths

Across the Bored, has a 14 day Two Cents Tuesday challenge. The theme this go around is PATHS.  Everyone today seems to be going somewhere in a hurry – “Where do the paths lead in your world?” 

While visiting Lili’uoklani Park and Gardens, I found myself standing before a rock path that connected the opposite ends of the pond.  I hesitated for a moment.  I thought to myself as I contemplated going across the rock path how my life was so different last year.  Last year,  I was a carefree and worry-free individual.  Now, I am a mother and part-time caregiver for my elderly parents. The amount of responsibilities that rest on my shoulders have multiplied exponentially.  I never thought I would be where I am today.

Caring for another person is exhausting, stressful, and simply nerve wrecking.  Every decision I make could possibly jeopardize the life of my loved ones.  My life has been a mirror of visits to the doctor’s office and hospitals.  While pregnant, I spent a lot of my time gallivanted through the hospital floors while waiting for my mother’s surgeries.  My baby has been to far too many hospitals before her birth.  I did joke a bit that perhaps this is her training to become a doctor one day.

Growing up as an only child I was never disappointed of ever having siblings.  But, now, as I get older, I wish I had a sibling whom I could count on and be able to share my worries with.  Time is the only gift I wish I was granted.  There is not enough time in the day to do everything that I need to do.  If there were two of us, we could split up the duties of caring for our parents and maybe our babies.

This prompt made me realize how grateful I am for the moments I have right now.  At the end of the day, I am just glad I was given another day to spend with my loved ones.   The path I had carved for myself is not the one I have today.  We just never know what tomorrow will bring.




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